HELLO;DD

2009-01-29T10:20:00.000+08:00

relink please,

http://vintageheartburns.blogspot.com

2009-01-13T16:07:00.002+08:00

ok i need to rant.

Omg i SERIOUSLY do not understand why aep has been shifted to thursday. Like just because of those people, like 4 -.- , who can't make it on friday, then we have to shift it to thursday. Ok la, i know the reason, but like, i don't know :( I don't want aep on thurs leh, until 7 and somemore friday got lots of subjects must rush with homework. and wake up early the next day, very tiring leh :'(

Aaiyah i want to cry already la, hurt my little fragile heart ( choonkhee borrow ur line for awhile hor )

Wtv la, pissed off and sad, BYE.

2009-01-09T20:37:00.003+08:00

So, today is so freaking tiring.
Like what the hell, i'm like already having a sore throat and a headache and a freaking cough and the teachers were talking TOO much. And best still, there was math, then POA continuously!
I really wanted to die. was feeling so unwell. But told myself had to go for aep.

So yeah, the day sucked, (as usual) with my super low voice.

But aep was goooodddd. [:
Hahaha, like finally talked to shipei, angela ( the one that untied my shoelace while sitting on the floor, got nothing better to do), clara, joan , melissa lee ( omg mel u damn retarded ) and many more.

Although shipei and I had some frustrating thingsssssssssssssssss ( shall not say ),
it was goody overall. But it's super long can. 4 FREAKING HOURS. can die :(

and i freaking miss miss ho, where u go la, abandon us for ur studies :'( and didnt even manage to say my last goodbye. :'(

Anyhoo, cant wait for the next aep lesson, which is next friday
Ok super tired now and already got so much work for aep itself.

OH OH AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENIA KWONG! MISS YOU LIKE SHITZ. (L)
Till then,

2009-01-07T22:27:00.006+08:00

Hello everybody. I know it's been a really long time since i've last posted, but here i am !

First thing first,
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Hope everyone has a happy 2009 and that school's getting better everyday (:

So. Updato.

First day of school was weird. Totally. Going into a class where you don't know a single soul can be pretty awkard and frightening. But yeah, got to know new friends.
Day two and three were much better, started joking around with people sitting around me, all very lame but fun.

And the fourth day, which is today. I didn't go to school cos I'm sick. Like so randomly. I had a sore throat yesterday and thought it was something normal so i didnt really care but this morning my body was hot and i just slept till like 11 plus and went to see the doctor and took mc. Got two days of mc, today and tmrw. But if im well tmrw, will be going to school, though last two periods are free periods, (f&n/art) hahah, but still.

Will see how it goes.

Apparently, being sick sucks cos it hurts so much when i cough. It was dry cough and now there's phlem or however you spell that. :(
So irritating can :(

And the amazing thing is people who i talked to yesterday in sch are sick too -.-
'virus' in between us or something. Ah well.

Will update soon and thinking of changing blogskin if i've got the time.
Oh and i can't wait for aep/higher art this fri, though its a freaking four hours but still, catching up with retarded peeps! that is if i get well by then, hopefullly (:

Till then,
Xoxo

2008-12-25T00:18:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas Everyone !

May everyone have an awesome christmas. With loads of gifting, sharing, and love.

Xo, S <3

2008-12-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

Angus , thongs and perfect snogging songs are awesome and i just downloaded them.

1. ever fall in love
2.ultraviolet
all by stiff dylan

Enjoy dudes.

2008-12-18T18:06:00.003+08:00

Okay hey guys, change of blogskin and if u look at the background properly, it's actually a combination of redish pink and grey, not only grey. I just realised that when i pushed my laptop screen forward, or rather bend it backwards. Pretty cool (:

Anyhoos, I'm so glad Bob the physics teacher won Survivor:Gabon!
I was watching and i got soo effing excited for him, HAHA. ohoh and i think marcus lehman is super hot and he could have made it to top three but got kicked out cos of some betrayers. Damn ):<

So yay , at least bob won, thank god it wasnt susie the hairdresser :D

So life's pretty cool and i've been sleeping on two comforters on the floorwith my sis at the balcony cos its super cooling and comfy ! (:

Will update soon peeps.
Xo, S

2008-12-14T04:42:00.002+08:00

Apparently, life still sucks.

But i just watched 'wildchild' and 'angus, thongs and perfect snogging' online. Nice shows. Get them at watch-movies.net instead of the cinemas if u're trying to save money for christmas or new year or wtv.

And i was talking to miss choonkhee online when she just told me brb and was never back, and now she's saying she needa sleep. but ah well, it's 4.46 am now, everyone should be sleeping. The tv's boring nowadays and i needa think of new designs.

Oh my effing god I finally catched up on gossip girl and apparently, Serena should have picked up that call instead of kissing Aaron just because he said he might be falling in love with her, but then again, who knows what will happen and i still like S and D to be together (:

I needa shop. Badly. But im eyeing for Verizon's XV6900 this christmas, and maybe, i'll be eyeing for another 9 years or so ): this LG phone lags much and pisses me off. Touch screen aint that fun afterall. And i'm looking for a flip phone that i suits my taste but apparently now's all slide and touch. Ugh.

Tmrw's like, the 15th and i'm like, SO dead.

Till then, much love!

2008-12-11T22:19:00.003+08:00

Hahaha im bored and i read this on lisa's blog, interesting.

The rules are simple:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense!

How are you feeling today?
Complicated (Hahaha, yeah kinda)

Will you get far in life?
London bridge ( Is that bridge far away, ahahah )

How do your friends see you?
Bye bye (What the hell ! )

Will you get married?
So sick ( ... )

What's the story of your life like?
Realize ( Take time to realise things :] )

What's secondary school life like?
Just the girl ( lol )

How can you get ahead in life?
The little things ( haha )

How do you feel about your friends?
Lucky ( Hahah lucky to have them!)

Describe them.
Teenagers (HAHAHAHAHA goddamn right)

What's tomorrow gonna be like?
Piece of me ( haha, sounds fierce)

What's in store for the weekend?
Dangerous (Hope not)

Describe yourself.
Hollaback girl ( HAHAHAHAH wth)

Decribe your parents.
Forever (That's sweet !)

How's your life going?
Lovebug ( HAHA)

What song will they play at your funeral?
HSM2 Everyday (Yeah, you die ONCE IN A LIFETIME, but sweet song leh, like gonna burn me then the moment's gone. HAHA)

How does the world see you?
Geek in the pink ( Hello, i dont have pink clothes -.- )

Will you have a happy life?
Miss Independent (HAHAHAHA , so true!, wait, is that happy or not -.-)

What do your friends really think of you?
Big city dreams ( Hahahahaha )

Do people secretly lust after you?
Teardrops on my guitar (I guess thats a no .. )

How do I make myself happy?
Wake up call (No please! I need sleep)

What should you do with your life?
Touch my body (Lol WTH )

Will you have children?
When i grow up (LOL AHHAHAHAA, yeah probably. )

Hahaha, awesome stuff. (:

2008-12-09T01:38:00.001+08:00

Hello it's been pretty long since i've posted.
Ah well, apparently I'm stoning and can't get to sleep and i shall try to revive this blog soon.

Meanwhile, searching for blogskins.

Xo, S

2008-11-27T16:13:00.003+08:00

Wassup. I know it's been a while since i've posted properly. Well, I'm here to post.

These few days have been boring, and tiring.
I've been doing research on fashion design, and trying to note down all popular trends and stuff and also working on the basic of art since i didnt quite get some of miss ho's lesson as i've missed them like perspective and all. So yeah that's one thing i've been doing.

I've joined Facebook and i realised.....nothing. HAHA. well it's because i haven't gotten to really surf facebook and i get so irritated with the mails of people accepting and becoming my friends.

And and, one fun thing i did with choonkhee recently.
Omg it's damn fun. We joined Habbo, an online game, then we act like bitches and all and people get irritated with us. But our first attempt was the best! Choonkhee was like, telling a guy she was 45 and that she's sexy -.- Hahahahah, damn funny. i was like laughing, and watching a great show. But the rest wasnt that funny anymore ): It's not cyber bullying ok. We're nice. :D

Ok, will update if i have something nice to.

Much loved.

Well it's not like you care anymore, so why should i?

2008-11-24T18:03:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday angela ho,
thanks for always being there for me and being an idiot and asshole, (:
love you long time la, you damn what can, reply my birthday msg for u but never say thank you one, sheesh, rude! ( omg choonkhee ahahhaa, u know what i mean )

ok yeah im done with the nice birthday post and im outta here.
PS: i wanna watch wildchild and life apparently still sucks

2008-11-15T03:55:00.003+08:00

God my throat's not functioning properly I'm about to die of, what, i don't know.
It's just terrible and it's making me lose more sleep, cause i jsut toss and turn and my throat's like on fire i'd rather die, srsly.

Gossipg update.
I think jenny's pretty awesome, trying to start her own line and the way of presenting her designs, liked that pretty much. On the other hand i think she's good with nate, and i still hope for S and D to get together. PS: jenny's haircut is erm, funky.

I think i just lost myself,

2008-11-13T03:37:00.001+08:00

Life's bad.

Been having sleeping problems ( i always have them )

You know blake lively is my phone's home screen , HAHA. She's effing hot.

Later.

2008-11-09T00:16:00.009+08:00

Right mood for dedications (:
Thanks for the memories,

Secondary 2E3 2008 !
Heads up 2/3 '08 peeps :D You guys really encouraged me a lot, at times when i'm having difficulties. Thanks so much! I will never forget the two years we've spent together and the scoldings from teachers and bitching and gossiping and fun we had as a class. We got better this year and no matter what, i love you guys. Big hearts and kisses,

Clare chan kai li!
Haha hello partner. Omg i can't believe i wasted my first half of secondary one and three quarters of this year being your seating partner, damn! HAHA just kidding la. I think yannie and wanne has the same plan for seating arrangements, all by register number. And srsly, i will never forget the way you looked when yannie told us she was gonna change our seats second half of the year, and it was just for us to move to the other side of the room, and your mouth kinda dropped, damn big, HAHAHAHA. Damn funny. Ok la, thanks for being such an awesome partner, helping me to deal with armstrong during lit and always joking around. I believe we got closer after sitting together, and i just realised I've been your seating partner four times. P4, chinese lesson P5 , sec one and this year. It was great talking to you during almost every lesson :D Thanks again buddy!

Stephanie tham wei jun!
Hello :D Thanks for always being here for me, helping me in studies and all when i needed and asked you (: It's great to have you as a friend still after so many years. Love sitting in front of you and clare and i think i'm awesome that's why you can't stop laughing when i turn back and look at you, haha. Just kidding. And srsly, the chinese newspaper jokes are damn freaking cold, ( cold jokes) i still don't get them -.- But still, thanks for making school fun. You're a smart girl with loads of intelligence, keep up the good and constant work. Way to go girl! love you much. :D

Clara as in Tee!
Haha that's what you put in tagboards :D Thanks for being such a funnaye friend, it's always been a pleasure being with you. Remember , " ohmygod ohmygod!" HAHA, will never forget that ^^ You're a great leader with loads of creativity, a good artist too. AEP has made us spent more time together, somehow, and thanks for guiding me and helping me in art. Oh and free periods! Fun memories. Love you plenty (:

Joan , Chloe and Nicole yap!
Hey women :D Thanks so much for making free periods a hell lot of fun. You women really brought laughter and i wish you guys the best in whatever comes. Love you women plenty (:

ok done with 2/3 peeps :D next up,

Angela ho hui yue!
Hi asshole. :D Known you since P1 and you haven't changed a single bit in character and personality. Thanks for being my close friend all these while and always lending me a listening ear when i need one to spill my troubles and worries, and also, being tolerant when i get a little too irritating and insensitive. You always cheer me up just by being yourself, it's always great being with you. Stay the way you are, the way you bring laughter and joy and nonsense to everyone around you. I'll always cherish this friendship. Though we've had rocky moments but i'm glad we managed to overcome those back then. I never want this friendship to end because it means a hell lot to me. Love you millions asshole (: Big hearts and kisses,

Koh Choonkhee!
Hello! I srsly didn't think, not even once, that i would get this close to you. I don't know what was the reason, ( i think it was angela) but I'm happy to have found another true friend. (: Though we recently just got to know each other, and surprisingly clicked well, thanks for caring so much and always listening to my troubles and worries. It's really fun talking to you on MSN and messaging you cause you always cheer me up somehow. (: I hope we get to know each other better in time to come and i will treasure this friendship. Don't eat too much apples, you get high on them -.- haha, and rmb, bon qui qui, I've got a complicated order! Love you ^^

Melissa lee wen hui!
Wassup! :D It's been a while since we've had a good chat, but still, i've known you for quite a few years and you still haven't change a bit, always making classmates laugh and talking back to teachers. I rmb miss ngew got so angry with you in P3, haha. Ah well, thanks for being by my side and telling me you will be there for me. It's awesome being with you and having you in AEP lessons. Stay cute and funny, that's the melissa i know. Love you long time (:

Tessa !
Hey woman. You've changed pretty much since primary school. Sometimes i really don't know how to face you, but i don't deny you tend to cheer me up when i tell you my sorrows, and thanks for that. You yourself might be feeling troubled. Just rmb i'm always here for you. It's been a long time since we last talked face to face. I hope things will get better between us and don't tire yourself out. Rest loads and ' still not dead' didn't sound ok to me. Love you still, deep down.

Last but not least,

Tay shi pei!
Hi egoistic. :D Be honoured cause this is coming from the most awesome of the awesomes. ^^ No doubt it's been fun being with you each time we get the chance to. AEP indeed brought us closer, so did the istana trip and justin lee's workshop. It would be awesome if we get to go to istana together again next year, with miss ho ! Omg i can't stand myself, so clever :D HAHA, no la serious. Kinda like a yearly thing? Whatever that term is. Thanks for lending a listening ear when i had troubles. You can't really console people, cause you kinda ask people too many questions instead of helping. Haha. Ok la, you're still a good kid, but still ego. Handing up work on time, and blah blah, I'm so different from you, in almost every way. It's been fun messaging you frequently, and i'm sorry about all those stupid rumors and stuff. Maybe we won't be spending too much time cause of some promise i made, but i'll try to figure that out ok. Just don't miss me and my messages too much, HAHA :D WORK ON TAKING INITIATIVE PERSON. sometimes you piss me off like hell, but still, thanks for everything. Keep the key chain well, hope this friendship will get better in time to come. Much loved,

Ok finally done. will update if i missed anyone out.
Ciao!

2008-11-05T02:00:00.002+08:00

It's time t pause for a while,
t take a look at what's really going on around us, in this world.

If you've done well for your exams, good for you, your hard work finally paid off.
But for those who worked hard, and yet your results weren't of expected, it's ok. As long as you know you did your best, You can't blame urself. Just work harder, and don't lose that confidence and faith, cos that's what u need in the days t come, not forgetting t be persistent and patient.

What's done can't be undone, that's what i tell myself, no use regretting, why not think about how t do better for the next exam, isn't that making use of time too?

If you've fallen, stand up. Don't just lay there and wait for someone t help you up. A person has t learn t stand up on his/her own no matter how bad that fall is. That's just a step t success, no?

When there's a will, there's a way.

2008-11-02T00:45:00.003+08:00

It's hurting t find out that someone close to you might be harming you all these while. I never know what's the reason, simply because I'm not be able t bring myself t ask that person. But deep down, i really want t know. Why? Why must you always hurt me so deeply, and then come back and say you're sorry. You never know how much all these things affect me, well let me tell you, it affects me a whole lot, because the person is you, not just a friend, but someone who meant a lot to me. It's because i never thought you would ever be involved in these kind of things, it's because i never knew you were one who would do this t your friends, it's because you told me i meant a lot to you, that's what's making my heart break. I was there whenever you needed me, I dare say. Why do you have t be a possibility in this situation i'm facing now? Why in the world is it always you?

But let me tell you this, this time round, save those three words for yourself, cause it's not gonna work, never will again.

2008-10-30T00:31:00.003+08:00

pretty long since i last blogged.

here's the thing,

person a;
i don't see how avoiding me can solve our problem, maybe you didnt realise we had this problem in the first place. You're my best friend, i didn't expect you t not knw me after so many years of friendships. You used t be the one that could make me laugh out loud, cheer me up, put my worries aside each time i'm with you, but now, i realised it's all in past tense. Now that you're avoiding, it's just plainly helpless. Let's work this out together, shall we? I lost enough happiness in my life, all the more i can't lose my source t happiness, which is you,A.

person b;
what more can i say? you leave me speechless each time. now i don't even know why i'm acting t be happy, even being the one t cheer you up when i'm the one feeling down, but still, i want this friendship t go on, even if it means i have t take the initiative most of the times, even if it means t cheer you up when i myself have a sucky mood, even if it means , i dont know...everything and anything. i want you as my egoistic forever, even if things don't seem good nowadays, i'll be by your side when you need me, you just got t tell me dude and yes, you're a BIG asshole, Who's accusing you? (:

dedications some other time people.
till then, love.

2008-10-26T00:04:00.000+08:00

searching for blogskins.

searching for someone who makes me smile daily this holiday

2008-10-24T21:30:00.006+08:00

& i'm trying t figure out this life,

wassup. been a while since i posted.

well, life's not good, and i dont really wanna even talk abt my results and the things that are gonna happen in two weeks time. just fcuking excited and scared and wtv.

went t sch today, t take my ceramic work but i didnt go for open studios. miss ho was damn funny, talking so loudly in the art gallery, and sitting on the floor while i was like, messaging her when i was only one door away. -.- lol, she freaked out today, again.

anyway, it's been really cold these few days and im missing people, specifically, one person.

till then, love.

2008-10-14T02:49:00.002+08:00

HEAR MY HEART THAT'S BARELY BEATING.

It's like, wtf two:fifty in the morning and there's aep outing t dono where later at ten:thirty.

i feel completely weird, and totally going crazy. tired but cant sleep. and i have loads on my mind that i wanna say. so here's it.

[its just random alphabets]

person z;

i no longer know how i'm suppose t face you. i don't deny these few weeks have been fun with you, and somehow, i'm afraid t see you. i never know what's on your mind, and i want to know. you seem t be having fun just like i do, but when it comes t seeing you, i choose t avoid. i dono why, it seems as if though i no longer have the courage t be by your side and that i'm choosing t run away. from you and from our friendship. your messages make me smile, but thats like, how far we can go, only messaging. i'm afraid t spoil everything by seeing you and i'm afraid i'm nothing but a replacement of someone you lost and nothing else. If that's it, i really will be upset, cause i thought i was of another position in your heart. i just can't seem t solve this problem. but i dont tell you this, cause i never want you t feel upset, like the way im feeling now, cos i only see you in smiles and never in frowns, and i wanna keep it that way.

person x;

i've totally given up on you. cause you're never here when i need you. and it hurts, cos each time you're the first t come into my mind, but yet you reply me the last among every one else. i no longer know how you feel towards me, and towards this relationship. is everything just for show, and that your heart has completely changed?

i feel totally sick, dread for tmrw's outing. hope choonkhee's ok, and stupid angela is ok too, cos she always goes M.I.A., stupid asshole. :[

2008-10-12T20:45:00.002+08:00

Wasssssssuuuuppppppp :D

it's been boring. staying at home and stoning and messaging but messages make my day :D kinda getting sick of sleeping, then eating, then sleeping, then eating, watching tv and using com. i knw im gonna freak out on tuesday or rather, the day before the day of checking of papers :(

i'm so bored. just watched a few stories on star charity and very sad leh, im gonna donate 5 bucks, with my house phone LOL i always do that u knw. and my dad nvr realises, BUT IM DOING A GOOD DEED. sheesh, sound like im afraid t get caught like that. -.-

anyway, i think you're so weird, u just tag at only four of our blogs and ur getting me and my friend irritated, why not u just lay off and evaporate, i wanna catch u, on tuesday. just you wait.

i miss angela ho :(

2008-10-11T19:44:00.000+08:00

i hate myself for loving you

2008-10-10T00:12:00.002+08:00

I'm lucky to have you,

exams are over, well, AEP paper tmrw, rather, later on. i'm in dead shit. i havent done my prep work and SOVA is so difficult everyone hates it and its already twelve:seventeen.

but still, i'm happy exams are over. like finally. no more sleeping at four am and getting up late and rushing for sch and still hving t read notes on the way. no more 'pens down' and no more exam sick.

messaging peeps during revision was good, esp egoistic. thanks for taking the initiative now, cos that's what i probably needed, and u did it, every single day :D although th msg kinda always starts with ' so how was _____?' lol, thanks still. cos that was what i was looking forward t after each paper :D thanks for telling me not t give up when i'm so frustrated with everything, love you millionza , hearts.

i need t get back with my work. will post soon, :}

don't wry choonkhee :D, i'm here if u need me.
Better stop eating apples, lol :D everything will be fine girl.
be honoured dude.

2008-10-03T23:14:00.000+08:00

wassup.

literature was not okay, at all. :< i get so frustrated with myself each time i think of it. I wasted time on the one b/c cos i didnt knw how to do both and did nothing and moved on t question two part one and when i finished part one, i went back t one b/c and chose c and wrote like, one really short para, only five lines? yeah i knw. and then went back t question two part two and wrote one para too cos miss tutty said stop. besides, i spent one hour plus on question one a. and question two wasnt done well. Nothing was done they way i wanted it to be. I freak out each time i see the paper and i dont even knw what t write cos my mind's blank.

this's crazy.

messaging egoistic kid makes me happy :]
let's do this, together.

2008-10-02T05:07:00.002+08:00

hi people of the world,

it's five:oh nine a.m now and i didn't sleep at all cos i stayed up doing lit notes cos i dont wanna rush everything the day before. i was mentally stupid in the morning so dont ask why i didnt do it in th morning, or in the afternoon.

im like, going to prepare to go school now.

WTF IM LIKE SO TIRED NOW AND THEN AU AND SOH IS TAKING ONE PERIOD EACH FOR SCIENCE AND GEOG FIRST THING IN THE MORNING SO LIKE WTH THERES THREE FREAKING SCIENCE PERIODS AND TELL ME HOW CAN I BE SO EXCITED ABOUT GOING TO SCHOOL WHEN I CAN ALREADY FALL ASLEEP WHEN AU TALKS FOR 5 MINUTES IN THE FIRST PERIOD OF A NOT SO WONDERFUL DAY.

no offence but srsly, sometimes au can nag till dono how long and she says WE'RE WASTING HER TIME , wow, yeah. too bad she couldnt figure out she's the one wasting her own time nagging on the same stuff for like what, ten minutes ? -.- but i dont deny when she really teaches, shes good , well at least better than syde.

ok damn i hope the two chinese periods will be free time study periods. :/

you knw im so dead, i dont knw how 'm gonna pull through today. gonna shower and get ready for school. its only on days when i dont sleep, i can be so early.

JASON MRAZ, HELL YEAH. :D ok i dont think he's that hot anymore. geez man,
we sing. we dance. we steal things

2008-09-30T19:29:00.002+08:00

loads t say.

sry couldnt make it for english oral today and been delaying it till next mon.

sometimes people say things they dont mean. such as i love you. im sorry, i never wanted things t turn out this way. all these while, after what happened, we didnt talk, neither did we look into each other eyes. but we both know this friendship is still going on. we end every conversation with three words, eight letters: i love you. Just so you know, i no longer know if i mean it anymore. i dont deny the fact i loved you, and you were top in my heart. but now that things changed, things changed. it seems like wtv i say t u are lies and i dont wanna do it anymore. hurting you is something i would never want t do, cos i know you love me and im happy. but when i think of people, you appear first, but on the side i dont wanna think about. i admit im cruel, but i dont want this t happen and drag further. so im sorry, cos i might just leave you like that, without telling you the reason, which is probably i love you, or loved you too much, that i didnt realise how loving you hurt me so much, deep down.

2008-09-29T22:11:00.002+08:00

ok conversation with choonkhee is damn funny, and im like, so retarded. -.-

what hurts the most, says:
our sch got corridor meh
what hurts the most, says:
-.-
Choon Khee picture frames and broken hearts. says:
YES -.-
Choon Khee picture frames and broken hearts. says:
then what, walk out of classroom then fall to level one ah
Choon Khee picture frames and broken hearts. says:
SHESH
what hurts the most, says:
LMAO

post later.

2008-09-29T16:30:00.007+08:00

And hold onto your words,
Cause talk is cheap,
And remember me tonight,
When you're asleep.

2008-09-29T01:56:00.002+08:00

I'm not gonna sleep today, cos i dont really want t and i only have three hours plus till i hv t prepare for school.

that was so untrue. OMG I WANNA SLEEP. but i'll oversleep for sure if i sleep now so i can't. stupid right? hi sexy eyebags :D

Y'knw i have an ultra big ULCER. shipei see, i spelt it correctly ok. :] i knw i suck at spelling la -.-
yeah and its super painful. i have t use a straw t suck water, and when i suck, my cheeks get tired. so idiot, fishball.

i just breezed through google on whether physical force shld be used on children, yeah thats the debate topic. and not much could be found so im discussing with claire tmrw. I just realised, maybe i ate too much warheads t keep me awake for the exams thats why the ulcer. STUPID SHIT.

i hate exams.

2008-09-29T01:15:00.001+08:00

Hahaha, i changed my blogskins two times today./ well yesterday night.
only choonkhee saw the previous one and when she went offline i thought the skin was weird so i took this instead. love this skin alot, although i did changes t the fonts and all, and i realised safari and IE is totally different. like when i viewed this blog in those two windows, the font size was totally different. so i used IE cos thats what most of us use. :D

i need t do research on my debate, gawd its already one:nineteen in the morning. lol my numebr keypad not working :[

ok im tired. update tmrw and yay i got a tagboard so tag people. :D

2008-09-28T21:14:00.010+08:00

Ok, made a deal.

hi choonkhee. :D you see i keep my promise ok,

talking t you on msn is fun and retarded, you very blur like angela. :D

i dont knw what t say cos you want me t surprise you -.- lol wtf.

...

ok i'm done. HAHAHAHA.

im watching F one race. GO HAMILTON. :D

2008-09-27T18:42:00.008+08:00

EXAMS, EXAMS, EXAMS,

everyones mind's about t explode memorizing facts and getting all stressed up.

english on thursday was good :D i actually wrote faster and as neat than my usual and i had extra time t check :D compre was okay, and i was spot on for summary. hope i can do well this time round, its really important.

chinese on friday was damn horrible except for letter writing and compo. but second paper was terrible. i didnt knw two tian xie han zi words and one zou ju. ok wait, three tian xie han zi words. and before that i was freaking out with a lot of people, i learnt ok, and i forgot, cos lynette was freaking me out. :<>

hoping t memorise and understand as much as i can during the weekend .

exam's next next week. and its so super fast. t me,

i want t give it my all :D hopefully i wont get sidetracked by things. like, again. :<

What hurts the most,

Was being so close,
And having so much to say,
And watching you walk away.
And never knowing,
What could have been,
And not seeing that loving you,
Is what I was tryin' to do.

2008-09-23T22:20:00.006+08:00

Because life's like that,

it's so sad when i'm just right beside you, yet i cant be talk t you.
it's so sad cos its like everything between us is gonna end, just like that.
it's so sad cos i don't want this ending, i never do.
it's just so sad, for me, but not for you.

i accept the fact that you're better than me in every aspect. and i knw its never getting in between this friendship. but now when you see her, its like, im nothing in your eyes and you kinda, ignore me? i dont know. you quickly turn away and all, is that how much this friendship is to you? i wanna stop thinking about you, cos i know, no matter what i do, how much i try, it SEEMS like i'm nothing but replacement when you dont get t talk t her.

exams' arriving like mad. im so nervous and getting everything in my mind, doing the best i can. Let's hope i will be able t succeed .

PS: hi choonkhee, lol

2008-09-20T17:44:00.006+08:00

omg i fixed my laptop's internet connection. I KNOW RIGHT, thank you v much. :D

ok anyway, so tired from studying.

and i realised science can be interesting yo :D

now's break time, lol.

i wanna shower, bye.

2008-09-19T18:25:00.008+08:00

i want you t know that im always thinking of you.
i put on a front, a front that i dont seem t care whether or not we have quality time, and i might have hurt you, but just so you know, i'm more hurt than anyone else.
because you're just by my side, yet we seem t be drifting apart.
it's not like i can help it anyway egokid.

2008-09-13T19:47:00.005+08:00

things i wanna say t four people:

person a,
- i wanna know you

person b,
- why can't you take the initaitive t do things for me?
- you might not even know but you're hurting me, a lot.

person c,
- i want us t go back t the past too, that's the best part of our friendship.

person d,
- wouldnt know what t do without you, love you millions.

somethings just cant get out of my mind,
one of them is you.

2008-09-12T20:49:00.008+08:00

Speechless,

today was okay.

chinese was reading newspaper. super retarded cos yannie talks t herself, as in, read t herself in such a soft voice i thought i was deaf, lol ok la not that bad but i find she speaks a little softer now. then stephanie and i were only lokking at comics. only stephanie understands them cos they are way too cold for me. Haha, srsly la, not funny at all one.

Stephanie gave me warheads today. a whole pack. from brisbane :D but she took 2 and clare took 1 and chloe took 2 when i havent even eaten it yet. :( steph ate during math. i shld have ate one in science. and clare was trying and STILL PRETENDING that she could take the sourness when she was almost crying and her face was red. lol.

RECESS :D hahaha steph helped me buy my plain water again, and then i was waiting for angela cos that idiot didnt bring the diary today. stupid a not la, past few days never see me bring, today seeing me never bring. but she wrote a lot, according t her so its okay :D

math was omfg boring. people laughed at my specs. but i tell you ah its so much clearer. my no spec vision of mazlind is blur but when i put my specs on its like WOW, can see everyone so clearly from my place :D how cool is that. SO COOL RIGHT I KNOW. lol. thank you v much.

FREE PERIOD! :D
Hahahahaha, joan and clara was being funny, trying their council shoes on and running with them across the classroom. and clara walking funny with joan's shoe which is bigger than her own feet. :D free period makes me happy yo <3>

2008-09-10T22:45:00.006+08:00

omg 103 hits yesterday. that means many people saw my fugly yellow polka dots background. :( i forgot t change t this background la! cos my sister was rushing me t follow her downstairs t buy instant noodles -.-

im happy t know that people miss me ! :D ( omg i sound so thick skin )

anyhoo, i'm tired and today was a bad bad day.

byeee.

2008-09-09T02:15:00.003+08:00

Hi,

wassup peeps. haha yeah using blogger again. saraann say i very fickled minded. :( she made this blogskin for me and i edited it to be like this :D omg so tired. spent over 5 hours t edit and all.

sch tmrw. drama exam :/ stupid shit. but im confident on my role, at least it was better than last years, :D i'm gonna be a good good friend ya'knw. lol.

holidays are so not holidays, ( i mentioned this in xanga ) aep's getting so not fun anymore and miss ho leaving, things seem t be falling apart.

friends seem t be straining away, and it doesnt feel good.

i miss melissa lee, cos she went t brisbane and i wanted t have a good chat with her but brisbane was for the whole holiday, well, most of it.

met angela in school for 3/5 of the days i went back t school, clara too. that asshole blamed me for not telling her that im going back t sch on the same day as her so she could hand me our shared diary. wtf, like i knew she was even going back la. and she was messaging me in catechism, lol wtf, thats so unholy asshole.

and i got my specs ( did i mention this in xanga? ) lol its a long time ago thing. no la, during the holidays :D

OMG you know im like damn effing dumb. i realise its not because blogger suck its because i didnt put singapore for the timing AHAHAHA. ok shut up, or dont even smile,

ok i need some sleep. terrible eyebags and panda eyes (are they the same -.- )

Nighto!

ps: i love angela ho hui yue ( chinese name so sucky can, lol) millionza. :D <3>

2008-08-08T21:43:00.002+08:00

unlike those happy people out there, so much for 080808.

reached school.
then rushed t take geog test after borrowing like what, 4 pens from clara. (:
assembly was effing hot, and boring. they go left, left, left right left.

mass was okay. the priest was talking about NY and Singapore.
then HHF! Omg i swear our dance is effing awesome. Had fun dancing like a lunatic with clara and joan behind me and claire beside me. :D i think sec 3s are pretty good too.
hahahahhaa, i saw my sis dance. she practically dances with a stick in her ass.
Ahahaha, no la. but still, sec 2s rock more, for sure. :D <3>i just want you to know, part of the reason is because i've given up on you and to me, we are already drifting apart, even though things barely started.

waiting for angela t come online.

Here angela, just thought u should know,

8 years of friendship and we're still as close, Wow.
Although we had bad times, we still managed t pull through and i'm glad,
really glad, deep-from-th-heart glad, :D,
that we made it through. You are crappy, and retarded and slow (-.-),
but still, you're really the only one who knows me and great minds think alike.
not that yours is great, MINE IS GREAT :D (talking about our brains if ur blur -.-)

Thanks a whole lot, i cant thank you enough, for always being here for me.
heart-to-heart talks with you are simply great and i look forward each time.
be really honoured with what im gonna say next, COS ITS FROM AWESOME SHERRY,
you rock angela.ahahahaha, can see or not? ok la you rock la :D

I love you and always will, there will NEVER, and i really mean n.e.v.e.r, be anyone who will become a second angela, cause no one will ever go through 8 years of friendship with me till the end. even if they do, we still have an increasing of years.
Let's keep this going, and be best of friends forever.
its my promise t you, and let's hope it doesnt break.:D
LOVE,

yay (:

2008-08-07T17:02:00.000+08:00

it hurts me too deep,

it just hurts me too deep t see you and not get the chance t even smile at you.
sometimes no matter what i say, i still will say this:
always use ur heart, not ur eyes.

what u see, might not be how i want things t be,

2008-08-06T11:50:00.000+08:00

two free periods. art.

omg so piss.

damn sleepy.

cos i got woken up by messages, which i so fucking hate.

screw my phone for not being able t change the message tone.

and silent also not silent one. -.-

wtv la, very tired.

aep makes me feel sick.

ok sorry t those people i sent my msgs wrongly t. (cos i as not awake at all)

clare, sarah, sheena ( wtf i sent t a person sleeping a few metres away from me-.-)

especially shipei, A WHOLE LOT OF TIMES. sry if it bothered u, over and over again.

please people, sometimes i think calling me is better than messaging me in the middle of th night cos i wake up for a message -.-

ok whatever, doing science workbk.

freaking sad.

i miss angela, AND SO PISS HER PHONE IS SUCH A LOSER.

omg angela, i need jokes. :(

BYE.

BTW ITS WEDNESDAY.ugh.

2008-08-05T11:44:00.000+08:00

not sure if i'm doing the right thing.
not sure if the person i'm doing it for deserves this.
not sure whats gonna happen if i decide to do it.
not sure why i'm so hesitant.
not sure if i should even do it.

to you, the person who i never thought of will make me worry so much about :

i hope you'll get well soon.
like i said, i'll be here for you, and i'm already here for you.
please be strong. dont even give up hope, even if its only this little,
cos i've not given up on you. i know you can do this.

and to my most idiotic egokid, the one with a really big ego, the one who can make me laugh as if i'm some lunatic, the one who can make me smile like theres no tmrw , :

hi asshole,feel honoured. i was really hesitant to send u that message, saying that we shld y'knw, stop _______ so that she wont feel left out. i dont know what made u thought of this idea too, but it kinda hurt that u thought of it too, for some reason. i keep thinking of you two. i keep asking myself is it worth it to be by her side and leave you all alone. i'm not sure if you know this, but i really dont want t do this. leaving u when we can actually have fun, wth, thats practically asking me t give up a moment of happiness i can get, a definite no. but,
y'knw what state shes in, or maybe you dont, but she needs me by her side, and u never did tell me u needed me, so thats why i made this decision.

its unfair, yes. to you, to me, to us. i don't know whats your real feelings when i told you this. you said the message that i sent wrongly bothered you, in what way, i wanted t ask immediately, but i held onto it. it's been really really fun being with you.

i told you before, your still important t me, an important friend. always will. but it's sad to say because of her, things do change, not that i want it to, but i cant help it. sometimes i do hate her, for always coming in between us, but no matter what, i think i'm so awesome that everyone needs me. ( jk :D ) still, i hope the keychain is our promise, one that never breaks. keep it by ur side, cos mine is always by my side, i swear i wont lose it again. never.

i hope you do know our friendship might be akward without all my awesome funny crap and the awesome stuff i do, ( don't deny that im awesome :D) But i know you'll do fairly well. you always do,don't you? :)

you'll always be in my heart, even if we really wont be able t even say 'hi' starting from now, you'll always be remembered. dont get piss when i tell you i changed t the wednesday group for aep, it's simply because i need t concentrate on her. you'll still ace in everything, cos u have other important friends too, right?

so till then, love. <3

thanks for the memories, egostic.

2008-08-04T10:45:00.001+08:00

it's been so tiring dealing with all that's happening.

Istana was okay.
sun-burned and my back's aching.
but overall people were being retarded.

to be honest, i dont feel good at all.

2008-08-02T01:27:00.000+08:00

ok very bored and cant sleep. and theres a lot of things in my mind now.
i feel like doing dedications cause theres a lot of things a wanna say t a lot of people, who apparently are the arseholes i survive in school with. :}

you're someone i never imagined having so much fun with. we're in different worlds, you're in a really good class, and you're always in track of things. my grades are degrading and for what reason i dont know, but when i'm with you, everything seems so perfect and, every trouble leaves me, just when you're beside me.

but idk, now when i see you, i dont feel all these anymore. i get more troubles on my mind and each time we see each other, we don't seem t have as much fun as the last time we were toagether. we seem to be, dritfting apart....

each time when i leave you, you tend t be as happy onthe out and it seems as if though u dont need me at all. whatever i do, its kinda like, not important t you, and doesnt affect you. whereas you have no idea how much u can affect me. in a friend friend way of course.

each time when u talk t someone, u dont notice im actually looking at you and i say to myself, that i cant believe im actually up to this stage of friendship with you, when we werent even talking t each other in the beginning of last year. i go, WOW.

i dont deny you make me smile, but theres somethings you dont understand and maybe its because i wear a fake smile and you cant see through me yet.
someday, i hope you'll feel me with your heart and not just plainly think i treat this friendship as a normal one, cos just so you know, you're important t me and i told you before.

it hurts t see you being sad, or even sadder if u wear a smile and pretend to be happy when you're not, cos u always appear t be happy, and thats probably why i can't bring this to your face. Cause i'd rather you think this friendship is still going well, then know its going nowhere.

2008-08-02T00:36:00.000+08:00

'Sup.

Morning was bad, tummy pain.
and besides lesson weren't that interesting.

Chinese was just doing workbook and english was the letter writing test which was quite okay.
and then went t library to read national geog.

then math.
omg la, all she does is confuses me and then gives me that stare when i just stare at her.
clare practically ' doesnt exist ' -.- and stephanie and her very noisy leh, behind me :<
ok la, cos i make them laugh. Haha. ok wtv.

free period was lonely :'{
i was the only one in mac lab cos all of the other aep girls were in wednesday and they had t make their clay. :{

so i was drawing istana.

science was okay.
i draw the refelction very nice leh :}

then aep.
sensitive skin and my hand was itchy from touching the fresh clay.
shipei do until so fast.
then choonkhee very idiot.
angela dono do what also.
i was practically stoning.
wtf, very tiring.

sunday's istana.
and very what leh, only four people going in sec two.
me. shipei. grace and kimberly.
like wtffffff.

and fourteen sec ones? -.-

wtv, its gonna be crappy.
ok bye, very tired.

2008-07-31T20:25:00.000+08:00

School's so boring, and really tiring.

There's a whole lot of shit t catch up,
and mazlind doesnt make life easy for me.
I couldnt understand a single thing she was saying,
not like i will anyway cos she gives me that stare and it pisses me off.>:(

doing ceramics tmrw, not like its really fun,
or maybe it is.
phone bill's exploding.
angela said liu lao she daoed her when she saw her and then she didnt reply anymore.
CHANGE A PHONE, will you.

for once i thought you were gonna change, but i guess i was wrong.
now, you cant even be bothered t tell me what's happening in your life and your acting all lonely?
for goddamn sake, you gave up this friendship, its not like i could even talk t you at times, cause we always fought. don't even bring up all those things you said, cos there're all lies, all long were.

2008-07-30T11:59:00.000+08:00

Hi,

i kinda just remembered istana's on sunday. and i havent done the two drawings.

so yeah. Not like i'm freaking out.

Actually, I AM.

OH MY ASS LA I HAVENT DONE A SHIT YET THEN ON FRIDAY MUST SHOW MISS HO AND THEN SHES GONNA KILL ME. ):<

ass-crackkkk.

ok free period now and i wanna sleep cos the aircon's so cold and nice, in a way.

i need t poop, badly.

angela's phone is as broken down as the owner.

what the hell, can't even message her now :<

ok bye peeps.

2008-07-25T20:30:00.001+08:00

ok quick post.

science after free period was good :)
we didnt do much and it was fun :D

so after that went t canteen with clara and waited for joan like for dono how long and she so blur, couldnt hear us when we were practically shouting for her.

then put bag in com lab and blah blah.

went t the art exhibition and theres something i cant say.
i did something bad,
only clara and joan knows(cos we did together )
and i told angela so stupid angela says im asshole.
wtf -.-

was so fcuking tired after everything and then it was dismissal.
left quickly (or not) cos i was so tired and hungry.
didnt eat th whole day.

ok wtv,
tmrw cat class.

gonna see people like tat which she will probably start asking why i never go for cat class so long.
and then i'll say, aep workshop.

ok wtf m i typing.

ok bye. :)

2008-07-25T12:10:00.000+08:00

wasssuuuuppp.

okay free period, 3 free periods. HE. :)

so updato.

Tuesday 220708

Yeah, so its my birthday, :D

woke up like, when my dad went t work, and i decided not t go sch, cos i didnt wanna get tease by armstrong, (no la) i was sick.

WTF right, where got people sick when birthday.

ONLY ME LOR. ugh.

so annoying. then slept again.

woke up dono what time.

my sis practically suffocated me with the pillow and yeah, i HAD to wake up.

then a small slice of cake, HAHA, I KNOW, who eats cake in the morning.

but no la, thats just a cake i bought yesterday from polar. then the song.

damn nice leh :')

ok then slacked and then my dad came back early.

around 3 to 4 in the evening. then we went out.

ate at er, i forgot. wait...

OH yeah central. tp.

then went t library and returned my book.

then yeah.

I FORGOT WHAT HAPPENED LEH.

oh then i remember when walking home from a different place, :/

my sis bought me two stalks of flowers.

nice t say, its still alive :D

Then my sis and i went home t change while my parents went t th coffee shop cos my cousins are already there.

Bathed, and changed my tee. then it was dinnnerrrrr.

dinnerrrrr was ok, wasnt that nice.

but wtv la, was super hungry though.

Very sad leh, i dont feel happy. Not THAT happy :(

ugh, whatever.

OHOH i remember, we were finding bday cake in tp,

then OMFG I SAW THIS CAKE DAMN KEWL CAN.

cartoon cake :D who said cartoon cakes are only meant for kiddies.

But in th end never buy, cos they die die wont write my AWESOME NAME on the cake for me :(

what.an.idiot.

then went polar and my sis bought the cake from polar, again.

yeah, thats where my sis bought th flower. :)

Wednesday 230708,Thursday 240708

Was sick so didnt go school.

my god, this flu and cough is killing me.

today,

school was ok.

chinese was ok.

english compre test was ok.

I THOUGHT GOT SUMMARY,

then it was like 0920 and i was only at question 9.

then i was like, omgomgomg.

but when i was at the end,

Eh, only vocab -.- ugh.

i already used five packs of tissues.

running out of them.

screw you flu.

PS TODAY FRIDAY LA, WHAT THURSDAY.

FEDUP.

2008-07-24T16:01:00.000+08:00

so annoying t have flu and cough.
they just dont fit well,

birthday was ok. not as good, not as bad to what i imagined.

later.

2008-07-21T23:07:00.000+08:00

50 MORE MINTUES.

Ok today's fashion parade was fucking funny.

OMG SHIPEI I DIDNT KNOW U WERE THAT EGO.
Even on stage. Lol, no la, kidding. But you didnt look nervous at all,

so yeah, laughed my heart out when the sec 2 models came out. wth,

overall, lessons were a bore. :/
hoping for a better tmrw yo. :)

i'm waiting, waiting for you t fufil my very first birthday wish,
are you gonna make me happy, for once and all?

2008-07-21T15:30:00.000+08:00

ticktockticktockticktockticktock
9 and a half more hours,

and it's my birthday!
Ok la, not that excited,
sucks when its on a weekday.
like OMFG,

armstrong is gonna tease meeeeee >:(
and its the FIRST time i'm seeing him for lessons since sch starts.
eff, He's gonna torture me for goodness sake.
stupid :'(

damn tired.

I hope you would just wish me those 2 words, even if we arent friends anymore.
you know deep in my heart, we still have something on.

2008-07-19T23:31:00.000+08:00

ok i feel so damn guilty ( hard t believe right?) for telling everyone abt the model thing. and theres like, 8 visits today, so far, so not that bad la. i'm gonna delete that part, cause i feel damn guilty, wtf. since when did i ever feel guilty for actually humiliating someone, JOKING somemore, but wtv, dont feel good. so yeah, its disappearing after this post.

well, sorry shipei if you read that thing but if you didnt, its nothing, :D REALLY-.-

today was a bore.

sucky suck sucky. >:(

i dont feel like blogging now.

other time peeps.

2008-07-19T00:30:00.000+08:00

ok, hi [:

happy happy happy. :D

really very happy,
cause i found that thing i thought was gonna gone forever.
i'll hang it on my pencil case too [:

ok, school was okay.
chinese first thing in the morning,
hmmm, not bad? it was just newspaper reading. so yeah,

then mrs j didnt come for english,
so it was free period.
well not for me, i was doing my math.
congruency,
A WHOLE LOT OF THANKS T MAYTENG,
from the bottom of my heart, really,
i would have failed the test if u didnt help me from english all the way t math.
thanks a lot kiddo :D

so yeah, spent recess in library t do the math,
the h/w, at least knowing the type of questions.
then it was math and the test was ok,
i think a pass should be ok? :) let's hope.

then it was 3 free periods.
HE. i didnt blog because,
i was suppose t do my reflection for the aep sculpture walk but i was too lazy so yeah,
i was stoning and seeing joan play this really fun(ny) game on miniclip.com

then it was science.
went t lab, then class, then lab, then class.
tiring leh :(
went through answers for the worksheet given back and not like i was really listening and getting things into my head, so yeah.

au always lets us off late :(
what an idiot. then went library t borrow some books,
i think i read damn fast leh, two day 3 books, like,
am i awesome or awesome :D Ahahahaha.
just agree you arsehole :D jk.

then like wtf it was already 2.40 and i was the first,
when class starts at like what, 2.45? -.-
Then shipei came running to the maclab all sweaty but she was STILL late :)

then angela and so on.
its been a long time since i've talked so much t angela,
well, it was good. still being as idiot. love you truckloads.

Sat beside Angela during sova, with shipei just a few cm in front,
turning and turning in her chair. -.-
:) sova was boring and MISS HO'S NO ONE FAN:
grace adam ,
Ahahahahaa, the only person listening ALL THE WHILE,
melissa very ass leh,
:D aep was fun .

then research. on VAT.
SOMEONE was cheating with that report thing.
*stares at shipei* dont deny la, its practically just copying and deleting and putting it with another para. miss ho say SMART somemore, wtf.
:D ahahaha.

then laughed and chatted and crapped with melissa, shipei and angela.
oh and gossiped. it just comes out of my mouth with angela. :(
went off at 6.

OHOH, and then when shipei and i was walking out,
we kinda like met jteo, and she was like carrying so much packed food and paopao cha. wtv that is in english.
then right, cos shipei was bouncing the netball,
then jteo was like' is that school's one or what?'
then shipei kinda weird leh, like never answer the question -.-
so then there was this big truck coming then we stood near the construction site.
then the truck was like, coming back,
after the go round turn.
so it was like, behind us,
so MY first reaction was t get t the nearest side right? which is the one jteo was at, the left.
then shipei very what leh, go to the right, the shelter walk way.
*tsktsk, i know you want t avoid her right.
then i was like, HUH, so she pulled my fingers, ( my fingers got numb, srsly)
and i was like, OHOH then ran t the walkway. -.-

then we were laughing cos i think jteo was like, so scared for what.
I GOT SCARED MEH, IS SOME PEOPLE PUHLEASE. *stares at shipei AGAIN*
Aahahahah :D no la,
so laugh then shipei was like, why you push me t her side.
i gave that ok-was-that-wrong look. it was nearer what!

then went home, had dinner and slept. woke up at ard 11 plus.
using sis com now, shes not even home and its like, 1258am.
ok, very sad leh, tmrw no session with shipei and that lee guy.
a lot of ppl say the PAINT of the aeroplane nice leh, dont play play.

ok la, wtv, tired from typing.

you know im awesome thats why you're reading this.
thank you, very very very much. :D

till then,
Loveeeee.

2008-07-17T19:53:00.001+08:00

when you say you're missing someone so much,

i really wish that someone is me

2008-07-14T21:47:00.000+08:00

just because.

just because you think you're so great, doesn't mean YOU ARE GREAT.

just because i'm always here for you, doesn't mean i should be taken for granted.

just because you're smarter with good grades and all, doesn't freaking mean you can look down on me.

I know, whatever i've done, you will never ever,EVER appreciate it.

So what's the point now, of giving me that stare each time i see you,

like as if I'M the one that's done something wrong.

You didn't give me a sense of friendship when i was with you,

you always thought, I was some kind of alien, that didn't have feelings?

All that i feel, being with you guys, was being stupid and useless.

you always thought, i was for granted, like as if i'm you're slave, a person who does whatever you want to do and then what, you just dump me straight like i never was your friend?

i hate you like anything, and don't effing blame me, cause that's what you made me do, HATE THE HELL OUT OF YOU.

whatever you've said, that's all lies.

and yeah, i can't really keep track of how many are there.

I'm so sick of doing things for you when you don't even treasure this friendship.

last thing to say:

ARRRSEEEEEEHOLE.

2008-07-14T15:45:00.000+08:00

Ok, school ok, but had some really stupid parts.

Math.
I couldn't understand what the hell she was talking about.
dont know dont care :D
i think mrs wong is SO MUCH MORE BETTER, :(

English.
Was ok :) did skimming, and didnt like it,
Ahahah.

Recess. and then RME.
ARMSTRONG DIDNT COME!
AHAHAHAA,
we're so not fated.
when i come he doesnt, when he doesnt i do :D
how kewl is that, havent attended ONE OF HIS LESSON SINCE SCHOOL STARTED.
Ahahahaha, nice :)

then history.
had t do this mock test in which i dont even know any thing,
not even the first question. so i was making a lot of noise about it,
and it became an open-book test. :D
Ahhhhhaaa, yay :)

ok geography.
OMG la, i really cant stand that soh. ( wtv her name is)
ok cos she asked us t do group work,
so gloria, gwen and steph was in my group.
and we got this picture about cars on the road
and we had t find out the type of pollution, causes, impact and measures taken.

so we were discussing, then we had t send one representative t right the answers on the board.
one picture two groups do.
so steph went, and then when she came back, she started complaining.

she said at the board she was thinking and her finger just moved around, COS SHE WAS THINKING, then that stupid soh go and scold her. wth la, SHE HERSELF THE FINGERS ALSO CANNOT STOP MOVING WHAT. stuuppppidddddddd.

ok then later she started flicking her shirt in the 'im hot' way, and i told steph she wanted t strip, and she laughed, -.- then steph say, no la, just hot. then i say, YEAH LA HOT THEN WANT T HAVE STRIP WHAT. and she laughed even more. Ohoh and i told her about short-tongue people, and she couldnt breathe from her never ending laughter. :D how kewl am i (sunglass smiley)

oh and the last furious thing, she go erase steph's answer cos the other group had th same answer, THEN WRITE FOR WHAT! arrrsssssssseeeehole. ):<

and assembly was funnyy.
th dance moves made me wanna laugh, seriously,
but i controlled, cos im not that mean, but really la,
got one like riding motorbike like that, then one dono do what,
and jteo let us off late. just t talk t us abt the survey of our school

After one big round of talking, she jsut wants us t say our school is good and all,
stupid right, then other day scold scold scold.

so tired now but so many things to do.

sorry for losing the keychain,
i was down t not have it by me today.
i'll try my best t find it.
I will find it, trust me,
it means more than anything t me, egostic girl :)

2008-07-13T13:17:00.000+08:00

Saturday 120708

Woke up at 9.
got loads of missed calls and messages,
and i was suppose t go for catechism but then i promised t help shipei paint her aeroplanes,
cos she said i last minute back out.

So reached school pretty early,
went to level 3 sova room but no one was there
then went t gallery steps and saw angela and friends.
so waited down there cos angela said the morning session met at the gallery steps straight away.

then shipei came.
so we started painting/spraying th aeroplanes.
We started trying the spray on newspaper cause someone didnt know what a stencil was,
-.- *stares at shipei*
Ahahhahaa, she did the postive side-.-
but still, it worked.

so we sprayed th aeroplanes with different colours and we started painting the dotted lines which connected the flying aeroplanes.
:D yay! Damn nice ok.
But it took us a very long time and there wasnt enough black paint so miss ho had t go buy.

after everyone's left,
we still had my quote to do.
"simple in virtue, steadfast in duty'
ok la not my quote la, the schools quote.
so shipei and i stayed back t paint the quote.

And we left handprints! which was kewl, i mean MY handprint
Ahahahaha.

Then walked t interchange with shipei and met my family for dinner.

I think shipei and i were tired cos we did two coatings for the dotted lines,
but it's worth it. :D THE STEPS ARE NICE COS OF THE AEROPLANES AND MY QUOTE.
Aahhaha, no la, also angela' group's design.

We left initials but im too lazy t upload th pictures so go to shipei's blog for pictures:D
http://www.whooshship.blogspot.com/

2008-07-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

Now that i need you, you're not here for me.

2008-07-11T11:58:00.000+08:00

its friday today, sick of blogger. ):<

hello. free period now. 3 free periods, yessssssss.

it's like 12 now and free period ends at 1.05.

i'm actually suppose t do my art work, (at least that was what i planned last night), but, i really dont know how t melt, animate and combine MY PHONE with things. i'm gonna change my object, i guess. :/ then i wasted my nice nice drawing of my phone (:<>

yeah, attending aep today cos i didnt make it for wednesday.

Ok, morning was weird. i did everything so slowly.

then showered, sat on my bed with my stupid vocab paper, learning vocab, duh. -.-

left home at 640 or 645, then surprisingly sara made it, hhahaha. :D

then reach school, stoned in front of my vocab paper.

ok and i was ready, so i put my phone in my locker, (i'm a good kid please :D )

then chatted with 2/3ians.

assembly in class. then it was like, say pledge right, so then later prayer.

so cos our stupid thing is so soft, i couldnt hear but i think mrs matthews was th one saying the prayer with the long long introduction or story of hers. so weijing and the rest, ( not that saying your name is t insult) they were making so much noise, i was angry, like hello, could you guys just lower a little. so i turned around and ask clare t ask them to shut up. argh,

then chinese. read newspaper article. there's this really weird paragraph which was like, all the phone voice mail messages, and i didnt get it at first. er, it's in chinese -.- i 've never seen voice mail messages in chinese, even if i had, its in english. so the beep thing was like, toot, in chinese-.-

ok like why th freak am i even talking abt that article.

then it was english. VOCAB TEST.

O.M.F.G.

it sucked balls. a lot.

it was effing difficult can. and i did that thing again

that thing = forgot everything that i've learn for no reason.

like wth, then got the form for remedial, english.

and im the rep :/ it's kinda ok but for th fund thing, i dont really wanna go after people. -.-

ok then there was the fire drill! Ahahahahahah, wasted my stoning time.

then like went back and had t hand up, not that i managed to completed half of th paper. :(

then recess. photocopied th remedial worksheets.

then stoned in class again.

maths was boring and i didn't get a single thing she was saying :(

clare was being an idiot, as usual.

she asked me things and she said i was disturbing her. WTF

and so, i went t sit next t her cos steph went home, think she was sick.

then she showed me her, that, dono what, dnt template, which was errrr, erm, fine?

Ahahahah, no la, it was ok.

so yeah, we got side tracked by that template of hers! and i lied t miss mazlind.

that i understood. im gonna tell her I NEED HELP! soon :D

ok then its dnt.which is now, free period.

my cough is killing me, so is my flu.

like how th eff did i even have cough and flu ?-.-

ok i wanna play games. still have like 50 minutes.

P/S: get well soon steph!

2008-07-10T22:02:00.000+08:00

i hate my life.
i really do.

let's see. i tried looking on the bright side and i really tried my best to give this my best shot but when things happen, you can't really blame me cause you are the one that's making me feel so sick and tired of life. Not that i blame you and i know you are also trying real hard to keep this family together, but it's just not the same. No matter what i do, or what you do, it just can't go back t the past. and i hate it. i feel like telling you everything but seeing you come back from work, feeling so tired and having to handle so many things, words don't seem t come out. I'm sorry for disobeying but sometimes, i dont know whats wrong with me. I'm just so tired that i wanna run away. from you, from mum and from this family. I hate the fact that everything changed so suddenly and sometimes i can't help but hate you guys, for not giving me the life i want. I'm lonely and i can't seem t find back th happiness we once had.

I love you guys, but im really sad, and no one is here for me.
Don't you just get it? Things can never go back to what it used t be, and im sick of this.
i just hope for everyone to be happy, is it so difficult?

2008-07-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

school was really really boring. ok la, not that bad, but still.

HHF was errrrr, weird? why must go dance studio la, make me sweat when we havent even started warming up -.- Then clare came and was my partner. She dances in a funny way! Hahahhaa, She's gonna kill me when she sees this :/ But like, wtf is th use of this dance thing. ?

Ok anyhoo, Chinese! ok la, though i wasnt copying th notes. Cause i didnt have th first few. borrowed stephie's book t copy and its not been copied yet :( Argh,

Recess, stayed in classroom with rachel and saw her do that, er, comic thing? Lol. :D

Then english, went library and read national geographic. Mervelle=Loser. Call me idiot :'(
you mean piece of shit. Hahahaha, jk

Ohoh speaking of the word, piece! during free period(art), clara joan and i were in th library then joan asked clara for a piece of foolscap. so i think clara didnt hear that, so i said, eh, she wants a piece of paper. then they started laughing. i was like, errrrrrrrrrr,

then they said i pronouced p-i-e-c-e as p-i-s-s. -.- where got la! i said piece ok. what piss, sheesh.
Ahahahaa, but clara got some kind of attack from this pronunciation of mine, -.- she couldnt stop laughing. Ahahaha, then we went back t class, and we discussing the nicknames we gave t teachers. OMG THEN IT WAS MY TURN T LAUGH LIKE A LUNATIC.

clara is a retard, i swear. but im like a retard too, ok wtf am i typing. Ohoh, i laughed like a lunatic because!, clara did that stupid thing. -.- She said that when people say omg, they will normally like, fan themseleves with their hand, like you know, to their own direction. but then clara was so retarded, so starting fanning outwards! Ahaahahahhaha, like, the hand action is go away go away, when she said omgomg. Damn funny la. :D i was dying of laughter and joan laughed at me for laughing so much :( Funny what!

Free periods always make my day :D<3

Oh and before free period was one period of history and i was dying im telling you. i was falling asleep. Why is it always the japanese, british and wtv shit. Can't they be more creative and tell us, '2/3 will make history too!' Ahhaaha, that was crap.

then science, and lunch.
Animation was eh-okay. I was th chosen one (:<

I never knew people like you could be my friend.

2008-07-08T21:28:00.000+08:00

Everything's messed up, by me.
like wtf, there's something wrong with me.
Sometimes i don't even know what's wrong with me.

wtf am i doing when i already know im suppose t be studying hard,
i fcuking hate this.
really.

egostic girl, how i wished saturday workshop wont end. :(

2008-07-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

170th post.

to my number 1:

i really hope you see this post. you know who you are, i told you before.
since u joined ij, everything seemed good and happy, until D came into our friendship.
But don't blame her, i know it's my fault.
I did something i shouldn't have done and i'm sorry, really.
I don't know what happened t us.

It's been a crazy time, but all these while, i needed your support.
Honestly, you werent here for me.
It was me all th while who was there for you, i dare say.
Not that i blamed you, but it's really sad.

You said i'm your number zero, th irreplacable.
i dont know if thats still th same, but i guess not right?
You've changed, really. Or is it just me?

But for now, all i can say is i need you, T.

2008-07-06T14:14:00.000+08:00

let's see, update.

Saturday 050708

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY NICOLE LUM!
(Largest font ok better be grateful )
Haha, Finally, your birthday. Yes i remembered. :D
How awesome m i? :D Anyhoo, Have a sweet 14 and really, hope you have fun!
love you loads. :D <3

Woke up pretty late. 15 minutes after time.
did wtv shit and left for aep workshop.

messaged people.
reached school pretty ok timing. then saw miss ho and got th key to th room.
that justin guy wasnt even here when shipei was already 'late'.
so got t see that egostic artwork, hahaha no la, just kidding.
please la, her paper so dirty, first time touch my hand got black.

revision on last week.
then shipei and i decided t combine ideas and work in pairs, not that i really am keen t. Ahahahah just kidding. so it goes like this. Her aeroplanes with my quote. around the clouds.
How cool is that? :D

After that we started painting.
We painted an ORANGE cloud nearest to the primary school. the wall i mean. anyway, theres only an orange cloud there so if u see it, its ours-shipei and mine. it took a freaking long time t dry for us t paint the second layer so we didnt care and just painted.
It's nice ok!

Went back t class t get my work while she went t run round th track.
then headed t hub t buy birthday gifts.
and it was byebye. Had fun with her though :)

Went home and dropped dead.
so tired lah. slept and woke up for dinner.
Thats about it.

Sunday 060708

woke up and ate breakfast.
on th laptop and till now, im so freaking tired.
gonna do my work though.
loads of work.

Vocab test, (which shipei thinks is stupid cos she hates english, so do i)
aep, re-doing of SA1 drawing or touch up, wtv, its still work.
math, AND HA! i dont have t do science cos i did it already.
ok la wtv, its only one chapter -.-

i feel like sleeping,
and slapping myself.

you're so going down when i find out who u are,you freaking bastard.

2008-07-04T18:37:00.000+08:00

Change of skin, It's really nice, to me of course.

So, Tomorrow's justin's lesson in school for aep.
Shipei's nonsense, again. No la, just kidding.Still got t draw 10 items that represents Ij spirit.
Eff, I've only done 1. So much for fun workshop.Please la, Not fun at all :(
Got homework some more. Then later paint the wall not nice,
people will say us. I'm already hearing things, from idiots.

Ahhhh, i dont feel like going. But wtv, its gonna be painting anyway, we'll have fun and make trouble for that guy :D AAhhhahahahah. Yay.

Back t th freak drawings.
Shipei's drawings are complicated, so chim.

I think david cook gets hotter each episode in american idol.
just agree with me :D

2008-07-01T23:43:00.000+08:00

Hello, School was ok.,

Morning meet up with Antonia, :D Late! then reach still can spray water at me. later go provision shop buy vitasoy, and then reach school mislooked my wonderful drawing for 2/3's outside sign, the one on top, to show its 2/3.

Haha, everyone missed me, REALLY. No la i just added that.

clara said hi to me 3 times :/, clarice 2 times, joan shouted it out when i entered th class room, complaining abt me not going t school on friday :D, then stephanie, and clare.

Clare has toothpaste sweet, FAKE SUGAR,hahaha, sugar free la.

Geography. OMFG i cant believe like, thats my geog teacher. stupid jiow left for sports school, like can he even play good tennis? maybe its just the appearance. JK.
Anyway, yeah, th geog teacher left a very bad first impression for me. First thing i heard from her big mouth, "Do y'all need an invitation from me t ask y'all t stand up t greet?" ERRRRRRRR, YES WE DO, ASS HOLE. tsk tsk, bad impression and i dont even think i will like her please.

Science. Boring, i was wanting t sleep so badly.

Recess, did science in library. SEE HOW I TAKE THE INITIATIVE T DO THE WORKBK BEFORE U GUYS, HAHAHAHAH. ok wtv :D

Hist. Joan! she came over t my seat and sat with me. Talked abt muttons t midnight and stuff. Fun :D <3

English. Did summary. which was Eh-okay.

Chinese. Yeah she asked a lot. But i didnt really mind. :D im good, LIKE WHO DOESNT KNOW THAT RIGHT? ahhaha, kidding. then went through wrkbk which i didnt do cos i was absent -.-
gloria was being an _ _ _ _ _. i shall not say it, shes weird. :/

Math. Maps and scale test tmrw! Hahhaa, kinda looking forward :D couldnt get the stupid topic, and yeah, i suck. at math.

Lunch with nicole and steph.
Life science was not that bad, nia was my partner. saw shipei, that egostic girl. :D
Seeing her tmrw again for aep sculpture walk. Let's hope we can laugh like theres no tmrw :D again.

not really looking forward t tmrw's dance -.-

You know i rock thats why ur reading this. Thank you, very very very much.

till then,
Loveee.

2008-06-30T21:25:00.000+08:00

Really, it's been a while

Everything's gonna start tmrw, that's exactly what i dread.
i can't even start with how tired i m.

Other time peeps.

2008-06-28T00:01:00.000+08:00

Hello people of the earth,

Really long time no post, AND IM BACK, finally right?
know y'all missed me, dont deny pleasee :D

Ok, forgot what happened and dont bother t rmb :D

Tomorrow's aep workshop with justin ( whoever he or her is ) and OMF im in shipei's group. :D At first i wasnt then trade with joan after so many tradings and im in her group. She very thick skin leh, say its gonna be fun with her -.- It's me please, i bet its gonna be all weird when we actually have sec ones and threes and no one will talk, THATS WHEN I COME IN. Ahahahaa, just kidding la, and if shipei, you ever read this, 'm just kidding :D

Ok, yeah excited <3

And till then,
Loveeee

2008-06-24T18:09:00.000+08:00

TIREDDD, Blog another time. :D

2008-06-18T03:35:00.000+08:00

Haahahaha, changed my blogskin again. :D

Ok, i cant get t sleep thats why,
this really sucks.

2008-06-17T23:46:00.000+08:00

Hello,

hahahha, yay. sorry for not posting on sun or mon when i got back. ):
i know you all missed me, (like who wont right?) cos the statcounter shows how much you guys are looking forward to this post, LOL.

Ok, CAMP. WAS . REALLY.REALLY.REALLY.REALLY.FUNNNNNNNNNNN :D<3
it was da bomb man. Like seriously, tat said it was gonna past fast and true enough, it ended so soooooon. ok, got into St. John Bosco. with lester and rachel as my facil :D

Met at church at 8. only saw christine, then we kinda gossiped :/
Then saw angie and she told us to tell con 2A to go up.
So we waited and finally saw cheryl and diane, like wtf it was already 0825 and only 4 con 2As.
So we saw more peeps and went up t put our bags in the rooms.
Then waited outside, so fckuing hot but the facils were discussing some shit.

Finally could go in and got my cool name tag. REALLY KEWL COS MY NAME'S ON IT. HAHA.
then went to find this chair labelled St. John Bosco.
Diane, Desiree, edward and joshua was in my group.
So yeah, then introduced and stuff and left for bus.

Reached teresa church and i never knew IJ Kellock was so near t teresa church :o
waited again under th hot hot sun and then it was bag check.
After how many minutes, went t our rooms and we shared rooms with, ( i forgot the name) Lol.
But it was christine's group so yeah.
Then gathered in the hall and lunch. the food was overall ok :D

Then gathered back into the hall for praise and worship (P&W). it was active for that time.
Then session on Discovery and we went outdoor for team games!

Ok first game was blindfold.
It was bad. we had to crawled in a super small soccer goal thing and i kept hitting the chair. and they tricked us saying theres mangos on top of us and asking us t catch it. Very funny, so we were like crazy people jumping. -.- and the next was toothpaste game.

we had to pass toothpaste with the part of our body we picked in a bag and i got chin.
and th toothpaste was burning cos the sun was so hot! ):
And we won :D Then it was the spagetti game. freak that game, we had to find a pair and i paired with rachel. we had to hold a spagetti mouth to mouth and not break it while squatting and moving to a line. and wtf it was so thin it broke so many times we had to do so many times. and our legs were so tired );

Then it was the ping pong game. i did well pleaseee. :D i know, thank you thank you :)
And it was the number game. nos 1 to 30. we have to find them in ascending order but there are grahpics to confuse us and the fastest group wins. it was drawn in the ground.

After that, we were early so we got t shower first :D
Dinner next and Reflection :D Reflection was pretty cool,we were blindfolded in the hall and moved around by people and given a heart. we had t tear the heart once we hear the facils say something familiar like, our parents scolding us for going home so late. and there were candles in the dark, LOVELY :D <3 size="4">I. MISS. CAMP.
hopefully next year wld be longer.

Ok, im so tired i gtg. bye.

Oh oh and all the time we were in the freaking cold hall, which i never once took off my jacket cos it was 16 degrees, except for the outdoor games and food but i still got a tan. Hahaha.

2008-06-13T04:54:00.000+08:00

i cant believe im still awake and its 4.57am.
Hahahaha, gawd im so effing dead. :/

Hello my lovely readers.
I have a camp tmrw and i have t finish 3 freaking pages of maths sums in alien numbers by today and im SO awake -.-

Ok, so maybe tmrw's camp wont be that bad, its just 2D1N after all. and Somehow, i feel ok and then i start panicking and then im ok again. im abnormal you see ):

gawd and did i say my stomach hurts every freaking second im afraid i need t poop a whole lot of time in camp i cant even enjoy the games, if they are even enjoyable.HAHAHAAHAH, ok i did not say that later tat come and kill me.

Well, wtv. ok shit my stomach is srsly hurting. bye
sry will post when im back from camp on sun, or mon.

2008-06-11T00:45:00.000+08:00

Hello.

Went out today to the library t study.
Effing hot in th morning and noon.

But now its like, normal :]
I liked th haivy rain earlier on.

So, Came back at around 4 plus. Then followed my sis t shop and save t buy ingredients for dinner and i was tired so i slept when i got home and she cooked. Ate and Got really bored. I cant sleep at night, but i feel lethargic in th morning. Damn, this stupid sleeping routine again.

It's gonna be hard changing it back.

Anyway, talked t shipei yesterday till dono what time, 12 am? we lost track of time and she was funny [: Watched like mike too, Niceeeeee <3

i'm so effing bored.

Oh great, i have church camp on Sat and Tatyana makes it sound scary. ):
And i cant wait -.-

2008-06-09T02:24:00.000+08:00

my hands full of paint.

Did i mention i hate painting.

Fashion design doesnt like me, stupid.
Gawd, how do people do fashion designing?
i need t complete my competition work before i quit.

Bye.

2008-06-08T22:56:00.000+08:00

stupid headache.
hate.hate.hate.

oh im searching through blogskin now and i like one skin. so im changing skin. (obviously) but after this post.

Ok hellooo, been a while since a post.
I am bored. really bored.

Math, gawd i hate math. Stupid diandra chua , FOR SOME REASON, is a effing math freako. How do you do it idiot? HOW?!. dont tell me you like algebra ( stares ) Hahahahaa, no la. Ok yeah been doing math and wtv shit im suppose t do and all.

Changed bed today and i feel unsafe. UNSAFE. yeah,
ok, im gonna change my skin.

PS: Happy birthday diandra. 060608 I know you like the pictures right? Bet you put them as ur wallpaper.Lol. Kidding :}

2008-06-05T03:32:00.000+08:00

today is thursday

ok wtf m i doing here when im already falling asleep.

Anyway, Sara changed her mind and wanted t go macs so we met at 11.30pm. we were walking when there was this guy and near him on th ground was this lump of brownish thing and it really really stinked. i almost stepped there. and ew, it seemed like his shit. :/

Then Sara was as funny as ever (-.-) Lol. What i very lucky cos im staring at the most beautiful face which is sara, cos i was sitting opposite her. and lucky because im facing her and not my sis. Lol! :D Haahhaahha, funnaayyyyeeeeeeee.

Ok, then went t the stage place again and oh my eff sara drinks a whole bottle of yakult in a gulp. like, 2 FREAKING SECONDS PUHLEASE. so fast! yeah yeah, yakult champion in primary school -.

Then we played poker and my sis made me and sara laugh so much i wanted to pee. Lol, like srsly. cos she didnt know how t play then she keep putting the card which is smaller than the card shown. Lol, it was really funny. Sara laughed. A LOT. tsktsk so mean eh. :D

Ok then went to the steps and sang songs. Shake it, sara's fav song -.- Lol.
Then went back.

Dont know what t do, changed blogskinned again.
Afraid th previous one had imageshack. :/

I cant stand assholes.

when was the last time you even talked t me and u assumed that i was yanking all those stuff abt you, wow. thanks man, thanks a lot. Yeah the least you could do was tell me personally, and not shout at me in front of everyone when its not even true, those crap you were saying. Whats the point of me trying so hard t give you whatever i can as a friend when you this is what i get in return, no trust, nothing. you know what, the last time i saw you, i knew i never wanted to see you again. scoot now.

2008-06-04T17:40:00.000+08:00

Hello. my post better get posted this time cos all the time stupid internet sabo me and make me redo this post over and over again, irritated.

Ok, today nothing much but was really tired.
Went school pretty early and did my math alone in 2/3 class then went t meet mazlind.
Did math corrections and i think i should be good now. More practice though! :D

OH OH Im such a good photographer please. :]

2008-06-04T00:22:00.000+08:00

Hahahaaaaaaaaaaaa.
ok Hello :}

Oh today was boring until sara came to our house again and we watched erm, Ju on? Yeah. It was really boring la. but then the mother of ju on was scary when she glided down the stairs and i was so fcuking near the computer screen i saw everything -. and they just had to shout, scary you know :(

Ok, then watch half way dont watch. went t watch tong xin yan (-.-) when it was already 6:15. then played scrabble and stopped cos we were using primary one words. :D Then decided to go for dinner and we went t a coffeeshop and i ate noddles :}

Then went t macs for dono what reason, Oh ice cream! Then we were bored and went walking to no destination. and then we decided to play with candles :D so sara when t her house, which is really near and then we went to the same playground again to play candles :)

Then we went t this big big stage and talked. a lot. and tried carrying each other. my sis broke my shoulder. i think. Ok, then after a zillion hours, went back to macs for aircon and played guess who, and now, its 12 am, just reached home :}

Had loads of fun overall.

My phone low batt, pictures for the next post :]

i believe i live t make people around me happy. i dont see a reason why i should make people sad and 'm sorry if i did. I could swear i dont mean t make people sad, ( unless that person is a sicko)so if u are sad, the least you could do was to open your mouth and tell me. i dont really look like a person with a IQ of 200 so dont take me as someone you should be pressurized when you are with. I prefer the truth, to your lies.

2008-06-01T17:39:00.000+08:00

Hello. ok long time no post. Sorry , lazy and bored -.

Yesterday, went to macs at 12am with my sis and sara :D Talked lots of crap but it was really fun ;D then went to a dark and quiet playground to play sparks :D

it was so smoky, like got fire. i was suffocating ;x. then we were sweating like shit so we went back to macs again and played 'guess who' :D FUN <3 Then around 3am, my sis and i walked back.

Oh and did i mention, my sis and i both lost to sara in our drinking competition. my sis drank milk with sara, then i compete with sara again, for peel fresh guava. and i lost. Damn :( Hahahahaa. i was so sticky after that cos yeah, i spurt out my drink half way cos i couldnt control my laughter. :D Slept at 4 and woke up at 1 or 2 pm.

im bored, bye

2008-05-28T18:03:00.000+08:00

OMFG

MY DAD GOT ME MY TOTAL TOUCH SCREEN PHONE. SO SUDDEN LA,.

YAYYYYYYYYY, 'm rejoicing. like really. cos i called my sis just now, like a few minute ago then she was like, we bought ur phone already. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. finally. my nokia phone is dying. Hello, LG KU990. Byebye N6121 or 6120 or wtv.

ok. bye,

(yeah just came to share my joy ) :D

2008-05-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

ok hi.
It's been ages since i've last posted, well fine, 3 days.

So school ends, and thats when i need to get my books and study words that i dont understand no matter how many times i read through them. Yeah 'm that dumb so shut up :(

So let's see.

Sunday 250508

Nothing much. Actually i forgot what happened.
But i remembered i completed 2 pages of my math holiday homework.
First timein my records, doing homework on the first week of the school hoilday, and whats more it's Math. :D 'm proud of myself yo.

Monday 260508

Erm, woke up a little late cos i slept at 3. yeah. And i did my math, Again. i know, So good right. 'm starting to like math. I cant believe i just said that. or type. wtv. so yeah i did math. and i was dying, srsly.

Today 270508

Math extra lesson today. Weijia said she wasnt a morning person, yeah, we were all grumpy. and diandra, yellow person -.- ? so maps was not that easy, for me, i need practice. really. gonna do my work later, math again :D for real, i wanna score.
i need to get into the top 3 class. i cant afford to lose it because of my laziness and so im gonna work hard.

ok, im so tired. doing my work and sleeping.
bye,

2008-05-24T22:11:00.000+08:00

today was stupid, and crappy.

(ok im not so mean.)

today was ~~stupid, and crappy~~eh-okay. :D

Saw amanda yan first and gawd, she was wearing that black and white dress again :/ my dad couldnt understand her english, Hahaha. And she said lots of bad things, about me, so evil. No la, She said all those must study hard and crap thing.

Then we went to see Tjiow. He was crappy-.- Like srsly, He talked about my other subjects when he was teaching me only geog, and he acted like he was MY form teacher. and Cos i was waiting for him to finish with another girl then i think that girl was Ming En. So her dad and mum came and You should see the look on Tjiow's face. Damn funny :D His eyes was like, left, right, left right, in a very retarded way. Hahahaha. ok yeah, So he talked shit and we left.

Then miss mazlind. I was so bored :( She said about how we didnt have enough time for one-on-one session and she said i looked blur in class, wow thanks. Not like your teaching method very good like that. i ALMOST wanted to say that mrs wong was a better teacher, SO MUCH BETTER cos i understand so much better when she teaches. Argh.

ok then went home and i was wanting to sleep where my sister kept disturbing me i couldnt and it was brunch time. I felt grumpy for the whole day, for some reason.

I need to work doubly hard, Like srsly.

*I Believe i can do well.

*i miss,

2008-05-23T17:55:00.000+08:00

Today was a good day. :]

first of all, we assembled in the cold hall for morning assembly. then jteo told us, the sec 2s and 1s will be going over to the primary side and clara and i were like,

tell me how 'm supposed to breathe with no air,
can't live, can't breathe with no air,
there's no air, no airrrrrr.

Lol 'cos it started to get really hot and stuffy and there was practically no oxygen around us, only carbon dioxide and we were like, the first to go into the hall and wait outside it was so freaking hot! even people outside at the basketball court were already fanning themselves, not to mention us. But, Muahahhaa, when we got into the hall, i was sitted right beside a fan!

Be envious ok. :} like, oh-my-god, it was really cooling then, and i got numb somehow. lynette was like, " are you crazy? how can u be cold?" cos i told her i was cold after sitting directly in front of the strong strong fan and she said that. ok wtv. :)

then singing blah blah blah and when it was the peace thingy, me, clara and stephanie went to hug mrs redwan. Yeah i know, shuddup if you're laughing or even smiling. then, I FELT UBER HOT AFTER THAT AGAIN. She passed her heat to me :( like srsly hot.

then holy communion. and IJ SPIRIT SONG, then mrs drysdale sang the school song in return -.- So funny la. :D Oh and there was this girl, she read the second gospel. Her reading was OH-MY-GOD is that a lower primary girl. Damn how can she read so well-paced and all. and the primary kids were so enthu abt the hymns-. then it was byebye and got back into secondary hall again and there was this really bad smell. ewwwwww. but wtv.

briefing on dono what shit and ohmygod ms teojl is leaving another school for vice principal. Wow -. Then teopengsuan was so touching with her speech which made teojl cry :( Awwww,

ok then went back to class but me clara and joan went to look for miss ho for the workshop thing. AEP. i needed a form cos i didnt get it and joan and clara wanted tohand in theirs. joan wants to switch slots. shes from the 1-3.30 pm slot, anyone ? Please tell me on msn if u wish or tell joan directly. mail add in profile on top :] so 'm so helpful right :} ok wtv.-.

then did survey thingy in class and homework and BYEBYE FOR A MONTH IJ. 'll miss you, my lovely chair and table :] Lol. went with clara to 7-11 for a drink and went home Slept when i got home, i was tired starting from the entrance hymn of the mass -.

then just woke up at 5 plus and messaged shipei. then told her to come online so she did, (she's real efficient cos i wasnt even online then :/ ) so yeah, talked to her and stuff. she thinks chuck is ugly, how could she >:( Haha, no la, i used to think chuck was ugly but now, he's kewl (sunglass smiley)

ok im done for today's post.

i really CAN wait for tomorrow's parent teacher meet or wtv.

2008-05-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

Cook won :) so predicted.

Anyway, shocking news from clare 2/3 won 1st for rounders! Hahaha, Yaaayyyyyyy. :D See, my messages inspired peeps to win. Hahaha. No la, Well done 2/3ians, you guys worked hard for today!

1st in rounders, 3rd in dance and 5th in banner. You guys are the bombzxzxzxzx. :D <3 3 Cheers, and 3 Cheers and 3 Cheers for 2/3!

Hiphip, Hooray!

Hiphip, Hooray!

Hiphip, Hooray!

Love you guys loads :D <3333

Ok so i think everyone was happyyyyy. You guys really did a-ma-za-zing for this year's interclass, compared to last year's. ^^

Anyhoo, been talking to terie just now, till now we're still talking on msn. Then saw this really really quite video. little girl saying WHATEVER, http://youtube.com/watch?v=7cq_7RTrJgQ. You MUST watch, its the best damn thing.

and also, a fifteen year old girl had sex 300 times cos she wants a baby. caught three times in her MUM'S BED by her mum and the first time, when her mum told her to get up, she did, but for the remaining 2 times, she shut the door and continued her sex with a total stranger. Had sex in public also, in the park, mall, playground and even the staircase of a building. SHE JUST WANTS TO HAVE A BABY, and even keeps baby clothes and toys.

its all because her friends have baby and she wants it to. she even thought of prositution.
Video: http://youtube.com/watch?v=KRdJ49ItMnc

Such a whore. a crazy whore.

Ok i srsly need to sleep
Bye

2008-05-22T15:42:00.000+08:00

i never knew how long a loving flame could burn, but losing you has forced me to learn,

so i messaged some 2/3ians, those in which i hv their contacts to wish them luck for today cos i was falling asleep yesterday at 3am but i ahd to finish the work so i felt grumpy and then this competition came to my mind so i decided to sent messages. havent touched my phone for a pretty long time.

then D replied and she doubted my ability of shouting and screaming cos i typed "GO 2/3 *screams and shouts* " in my message. :( idiot. ok fine i cant scream, but shouting is ok!

anyway, continued messaging that idiot and i got too tired i ended our convo. but i couldnt sleep so here m i posting. i have to get out of the house in 1 hours time and my eyes are so heavy and i got eye bags. stupid.

i'm off.

2008-05-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

today was fun(ny) and boring, in a way.

ok we started off with singing the national anthem and saying the plegde -.
then we filed ( not so ) back and had contact time with amanda yan. handed up letter and when it was 0825 when we started having this financial thing.

first we were given a pouch which contained the cards and wtv not of the game and then we got the cash and the board. miss tan? then explained the game and all and we started off the first round of game with no shares yet.

so, we got basic jobs where we could up grade later on. then we started playing. i think wei jing was the first to upgrade her job. i got unemployed A LOT OF TIMES. stupid wei jing go curse me. so then miss tan was kind enough ot let me pick a job, lucky draw and guess what, I GOT MINISTER. Muahahahaha. the wage is like 10,000 bucks ok. but then, i got unemployed the next round -. stupid. overall it was really fun. but in the end, i only got 17k. SO f little. :(

then it was recess. emelyn wsa freaking out over the matter of not attending the referee training for rounders tmrw. later she found out there wasnt one -.

so when we got back, we started round 2. and this time, we played including the share investments. :D gawd, 'm starting to like shares. i mean, yeah its risky and all, and people get bankrupt over shares but its really really really nice and fun. and a really fast way to earn money cos i got 130k plus for selling it when i got it for free cos miss tan gave everyone free shares. HAHA and then it went down but i already sold it! Muahaha.

ok but still, wei jing got businees woman but she got unemployed, :D haha. in the end, she was the richest still. :(

ok then it was student forum. went to the hall. and discuss lots of crap. haaas.then got back to class and omg theres extra math class on 27 :( hate her.
and it was end of school and i got back home.
so rushing >:( then yeah, did what i was suppose to do. i was grumpy the whole time cos SINGPAPORE IS SO FUCKING HOTTTTT. yeah so i kept my arm crossed and wtv. :<

then i got home and im so tired now but i need to do stuff i cant sleep, but i dont think 'm going tomrw, cos i hv appointment and i dont hv the steps and costumes and all so yeah :( i wanna see the dance of all classes. damn it >:( especially diandra ! Lol. im gonna get someone to video tape it, hopefully :(

ok i need to get back to my stuff, stupid shit.

2008-05-20T21:26:00.000+08:00

ok hey guys. yeah, not really in the modd to post but, i'll just do it.

so today was sick.
i mean i was really sick.

i woke up at 7am. and i just dropped dead again. so i didnt make it to school. then i woke up at 10am. and slept again, then i woke up at 12 and i got a terrible headache. lied on my bed and stoned.

ate two mouthful of porridge. and i went to shower. i felt much cooler after that, the noon sun was cooling. :) so opened my laptop, and i couldnt take it, com screen makes my head hurt. so i shut it real hard, and i almost spoiled this thing. rested and woke up at around 4?

watched the sky and dried my black leather bag.
and the rest of th day was boring.
havent eaten dinner.

bye,

2008-05-19T18:56:00.000+08:00

ok let's see how you far can you tolerate chinese.

今天没什么精彩事情，一直都在家。闷死人了。
(ok i just took 5 min to type that -.- )

我的阿姨来看我，也买了我最喜欢的零食。 :D

ok gawd i cant stand those chinese words :x
anyway, i just typed that today's nothing interesting.
whole day at home, i could die of boredom.
my aunt came to visit, and she brought my favourite childhood snack :D

love her, always.

and im thinking fo doing a class blog for 2/3.
:D if i can find the time too.
im downloading photoshop now :D

ok, eating dinner soon.
buh-bye

2008-05-19T15:31:00.001+08:00

'm so dumb to only realise now that we can use chinese anytime we want in normal coms. -.- let's try typing in chinese. :D

你好。我在用华语因为华语 cool. 哈哈。这样很好玩，你们应该试试看。

cool :D

Im doing this because of my chinese holiday homework. stupidddd.
and im taking so freaking long to type one paragraph -.-

so im not getting better. ( i mean how can i in this current situation )

i couldnt make it to gwen's house again.
yeah put the blame on me ): sorry.

now my back hurts like hell.
and im not sure if im going to be able to go school tomorrow.
and regina says theres retreat tomorrow, weird stuff.

i rmb last year retreat, i was sitting with diandra and julia i guess.
diandra was embarrassing herself for laughing so loudly when linying was singing.
was that retreat? and i keep typing retreat as retard. -.-
so yeah, but it was touchy where peeps cried and all., and we hugged and kissed. NO LA, hug only. Lol.

so yeah, but wtv.

ok, nothing to blog abt, and gossip girl ep 18 is suppose to be out.! >.<

2008-05-19T02:16:00.000+08:00

its 2.16 am in the morning. i dont even know why im not asleep when im yawning so badly.
my sis and i just watched finished korean drama all-in on crunchyroll. now shes a dead pig.

and theres this weird smell in my room which makes me puke even more, cos im already puking like mad the whole day, for some reason, yeah im sick.

dono why these few days are so restless,
its like im going after something when theres nothing at all.
i feel so bored till i get sick, for dono how many times.
my knee-cap isnt helping one bit. i feel like dying.

i've given up hope on you. cos i dont see a reason why i shld continue having high expections when u dont seem to be trying hard and giving out ur best shot. now that your besties are pissed off by you, u find other people, and it seems as if though ur sticking to them like glue because ur afraid u might lose them too and ur nothing then. please, wake up. im in no condition to message u cos i too myself feel terribly sad and bored but i know ur just using people. please dont. you will regret this. i told u a lot of times, and we quarrelled a lot of times over this. but still, im telling u this once again, dont do this. if u just change back to who u originally are, everything will be ok. trust me? i will be here for you, but please, stop making the wrong choice, when u know its gonna hurt.

and angela ho is one idiot who is suppose t cheer me up, but im the one cheering her up instead.
-. love you la okay. :)

im tired.

2008-05-18T21:04:00.000+08:00

gawd i dono why its all italic but bear with it, cos im too lazy to change now

sorry

2008-05-18T20:54:00.000+08:00

heylo people.

so today was hectic.
i was so bored still.

woke up so freaking early cos i was really sweating. showered then i went back to sleep again.
woke up, ate breakfast. and then proceeded to hospital.

i was so tired i kept yawning.

then ended around 5?
dropped dead on my bed when i got home.
went online and talked to peeps when i woke up.

ate dinner, and now posting.

gah im so bored.

stupid you. how cld u ever think i wld leave u like that. i told u i wld always be here for you. and i mean it. dont feel lonely in heart, cos u hv me, and no matter what, i wont leave u alone, like what peeps did to you, forget them. i love you ok? <3>

2008-05-17T17:46:00.000+08:00

i couldnt make it to catechism today. :(

so woke up at 4am, sweating like hell, i was so frustated. after fanning myself a million hours, i cooled down and finally went back to sleep. woke up at 9 am, and i couldnt take it anymore, i went to shower. then my sis cooked her F&N practical thing and i ate it. it was pretty awesome, i would say :) then stoned. cos there was no fan still. my wrist was hurting a lot last night. i got so pissed.

then forgot what i did. went to bath again.

i bathed 4 times already i think. its so hot i cant stand it. and then earlier on just now received message from clare saying theres dance practice tmrw and mon from 1 pm at gwen's house. Er,...dont think i'll be going. cos i need to settle stuff with my mum and all and i need to go check up on my knee. i dont like the way school does this kind of things. i feel its kinda _____ cos i mean, its kinda just wasting time, cos theres simply nothing for us to do. and i rmb the last time we had to go kallang for netball competition, stupid.

now im getting so bored i went to fiddle with the curtain and it dropped. me and my sis was playing then boom it dropped. Lol. but wtv, its just a freakin curtain. not to mention what i did to my door, Lol.

so now im blogging, and theres nothing to blog. i was suppose to vent out my anger.

OH YEAH, did i mention, lmn is so irritating.lmn is such a bitch i could literally pull her hair and cut it off. seriously. like what is ur problem. ur're always talking and gossiping behind people's back like they've done so many things against u but ur're so ego to even realise that u r what you talk abt. that means, in simple english, ur actually the same as the people u talk and gossip about. u dont go 'yo mama' on people who try their very best to make our class get together. you're so childish i cant even stand you.damn you, for being the spoil spot. i think ur not fit to be in this class, where people put their effort to make 2/3 one united class, you just ____________, gawd, if i had the chance, i would slap ur face left and right, to and fro, up and down., sucker. *roll eyes and stomps off*

Lol. biatch.

why did the chicken cross the road?
to get over to the other side.
(think simple, people) :D

2008-05-16T21:53:00.000+08:00

ok yeah i didnt go school today,
it was ij fiesta.
i wasnt in the mood for fun cos i felt sick.
i am sick.
but wtv, today was boring.

woke up so early for no reason and slept again.did i mention my fan broke down two days ago so i had to sleep with no fan and no aircon cos my aircon gives out hot air a few million years ago. so darn it, im sick and hot and i have to fan my self to sleep using a freaking paper. -. stupidd.

its so freaking irritating when a person has hands to do things by himself and yet his not doing it, and asking me to do it and when i say im not, he scolds me, like wow, you shld hv done it urself in the fcuking first place so dont freaking raise ur voice at me. its not like ur crippled. get a life.

im already feeling so terrible and messaging people isnt helping a single bit.

you'll always be a friend of mine,
i just said that out of anger,
but its up to you to decide,
cos im done missing you, and i dont want to be sad because of you anymore

2008-05-16T14:56:00.000+08:00

if telling you how i truly felt,
if saying or doubting you,
made you feel this way,
i regret, i really regret.
all i know is i need you now,
i really need you now.

but you aren't here for me.

2008-05-15T16:19:00.000+08:00

today is a very very very bad day.

went to class and did nothing, it was contact time and yannie gave us our chinese holiday hmwk
:( some crappy report on festival. then checking of papers began.

went to dance studio.
checked math first, and sadly, yours truly flunked. i got really sad at first, cos i really did work hard for this midyears, but i guess my enough wasnt sufficient for a pass. then emelyn and sera and all were being retarded so i cheered up.

then it was recess where me and clara went back up to class to put our math scripts and then we started drawing on the board. hahaa, clara said if ur a right hander and u suddenly write with ur left hand, you'll be retarded :0 then i was like, ok.....

then we went up to dance studio. miss jteo, armstrong, and some teacher was already in there. then talked to clare cos she was waiting outside too. the aircon was really cold when we went in.

then the lit scripts. i passed :D finally, a pass for the day.
then waited for like, dono what. checked marks and then geog scripts.
i failed. :( badly. i felt like slapping the marker and myself. what softies. more like cold-hearted people.

anyways, it was AEP after.
and i got so pissed off when trying to get to the aep studio.
cos need to wear shoe right, then when i was walking out, the pavement was so crowded and people were pushing past me like im not there and these stupid two indian sec one girls stood there and talked. i felt like shouting at them, i was really pissed. then saw wei wei, and she was coming fomr opposite direction so i said stop, let me go first. haaaha. then went to aep studio with melissa and then we had to go up to SOVA room.

miss ho changed her hairstyle :D Lol.
sat with pingen, clara and joan.
pingen said miss ho's hair probably just grew longer in a weird way.Lol. then we got back our marks for everything. i did well :D A1! Yay, i was really happy.
comments for drawing: good attempt on first try of fashion design ( <3 ) but a pity no pictures on what made u come up with the designs. ( i had no printer -.- )
so yeah, i got a lovely A1 for overall. :D <3
REJOICE Lol

angela was being retarded.
she saw my drawings then she asked, this one u draw one ah. then i say, nononono, my mother draw one la, then she say, really ah? i was like Lol. then her friends laughed too. so idiot. then in the morning when we met, and she waited to walk up to class with me, she was like, where to go for checking of scripts ah, then i was like, CONTACT TIME LA. Lol :D she damn blur. love you idiot and i dont talk twit ok. :(

so yeah, then went to hall for briefing of interclass games where aep girls were already late but teo jl came only at 1.45. -.- then i was so bored, sitted behind clare and she was complaining abt how everyone wanted to do banner painting. she likes complaining to me :) which is sometimes funny cos you shld see the look on her face.

so after that emelyn got chosen as referee.Lol. walked home with her and she was complaining too and that her mum wld probably die of laughter when she knows she is a referee. Er..., Lol.
so reached home, ate and now blogging.

im so tired, i need to sleep.

and i need to complain to someone too ok!, i've got lots of complaints.

2008-05-14T21:33:00.000+08:00

hellloooo.
today is a good day.

reached school at dono what time but i was really tired cos i slept only at 4am. and woke up at 6. i was too afraid to sleep -.- cos i kept thinking of ghost shows and then there were stupid noises which freaks me out. so i only slept at 4 when i lied in bed at 12 plus. wth right. :(

anyway, i didnt say a single word until after morning assembly. i didnt know why so if i was giving you the silent treatment today, 'm sorry.

anyway, checking of chinese scripts in the dance studio was stupid. but i did well, more than what i expected so its REJOICING~! hahaha, ok, it was stupid cos wanne and yannie couldnt stop talking and talking about how we did and only gave us back the papers after about 20 min of their talking. ok la, not that long, but we were already dying of anxiousness and they still kept talking so i got frustrated. but my marks cheered me up. hahhaha, :D

then 2/4 form mistress called 2/3 and 2/4 to leave the dance studio cos mrs lee wanted to talk to us. i wont really say here what she said to us cos i think i should give respect to privacy. so moving on,

we had like, recess at 9.50 -.- so i didnt go, recess ended at 10.10, and the canteen was crowded. so i just stayed in class with clara and rachel. then we walked to dance studio at 10.05. we were the early ones :D then started stoning with them, until clarice and diandra came. and everyone came, it was so noisy. and stupid julia dono do what make clarice trip over my head. pain leh :(
then it was the checking of history :0

i thought i was gonna fail really badly but i didnt :D haahha, but i still failed. and it was a really-near-passing-mark fail. i feel like slapping myself, and the marker. she just couldnt make me pass history. but at least it was a close pass fail, cos all these while, history was like, 30 plus. which really sucked. so yeah, im kinda happy about this.

and then we went back to class for english.
i swear i could kill myself. like srsly. i was this close to getting a freaking A2,i was so mad, until i shouted so loud, everyone stared. but wtv, yeah, but at least im 'happy' i got a B3. wth -.- oh-my-god i cant get over it ok. ARGGHHHHH.

then it was science :00000000
i srsly, i mean, SERIOUSLY, thought i was gonna fail cos i wrote crap, but....
I PASSSSEDDDDDDDDDD :D
i couldnt stop smiling when i calculated the marks, people might think i was a crazy girl but i passsed.
l ike finally, sec one, miss champion always mark like, 2 marks fail, in fact 1 mark fail. and now, finallyyyyyy, i love the marker for giving me that one mark when i WROTE NOTHING AT ALL. at first i didnt realise, then i was like, how come got another one mark ah, then miss au said it was that question. i was , srsly? then she was like, yeah. i was laughing. ahhahahaha. :D
i didnt get a really high pass, but a C :( at least i passed, and im gonna work hard for final papers. like really, work hard. cos this mid years prove that i can do well if i just study hard. :D

ok, so that was the end. cant wait for tomorrow's checking of papers. i hope i do fairly well. but its a sure for failing math, and probably geog. stupid >:(

was so tired i slept from 3 plus to 9 plus just now and woke up, to watch shows and blog.:D

we should be together, internally

OMG checking of AEP paper tomorrrow. really fcuking excited.